About the walrus

My name is neither nice nor important. It’s French and means  “Bringing victory”. Although I didn’t choose it, I got used to it and sometimes even like it, as often happens in arranged marriages, so I was told.
What’s more important however is that I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 12 years ago, another part of my life I didn’t choose.

MS is scary and unpredictable. It forces you to face your deepest fears. But to me, it’s also a charade.
Three months before I was diagnosed, I had an amazing dream. My dream. The one I hold on to when reality is too shaky.

It was a nice day, in a quiet residential area.
I was walking with a friend towards a house, a detached house, with outside steps on the right side, leading down to a small garden. My friend disappeared but I walked down the steps. The garden was barren with two miserable trees. No foliage.
A double garage door was the only way in the house so I ventured in.
As I entered the basement, an enormous female walrus slowly wobbled towards me.

My God, she was the most impressive being I had ever seen! The top of her head nearly reached the ceiling.
Each time she approached closer, her whole gelatinous body quavered as if moved by an invisible wave.

I couldn’t move. I couldn’t talk. I could only watch her.

She had a friendly tusk-less face. She stopped close to me and gazed at me through long eyelashes. I could sense that she didn’t want to scare me, on the opposite. But she was so huge!
Then she started to talk. And told me a charade.
Deep down, I knew that I only had to solve this charade for her to let me walk on…

And then, I woke up. I had forgotten the charade!

I believe in this dream. If MS were an animal, it would be my walrus, huge, shapeless, impressive but friendly. I know that I only need to solve this charade to move on.


5 Responses to “About the walrus”

  1. Willeke May 31, 2012 at 8:04 am #

    Very well-written Véronique! I will follow your blog from now on
    Hope you are doing well, even if you have a walrus in your life!
    Take care!

    • tamingthewalrus June 5, 2012 at 7:51 pm #

      Thank you!I’m doing well and my walrus is very quiet at the moment 😉 Hope you’re well too.

  2. Billie May 16, 2013 at 9:49 pm #

    You’ve been awarded the Great Moment in My Life Award. Check out http://willeke73.wordpress.com/2013/05/16/a-great-moment-in-my-life-award/

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